Situations are critical.

Got back to Clifton this morning after what was an awesome spring break overall. :) I spent the majority of it with my family in Asheville, North Carolina- a city that I love love looove that also exceeded my expectations. I felt like I stuck out like a sore thumb in the place though; everyone ( I mean, everyone) had such an "I am an artist" clothing style that, in many cases, was accessorized with a musical instrument. Think city filled with daapers (with a lil CCM mixed in?). :P I was obsessed with the hole-in-the-wall boutiques and weird, embellished architecture. It. Was. Awesome. The trip only furthered my opinion that I am destined to live in the south. Like, it's a done deal. :)

After a nice little vacation, it's back to reality with spring quarter tomorrow. But, like I said before, I'm excited about it. :) I'm glad to be back with the people I missed over break (yeah, I know it was only a week haha) and I can't wait for the shenanies I'll have with them now that it's actually conceivable to be outside again! :P

I know it's going to be a busy quarter- what with job searching, planning for a big move, school projects, and parties :)- but I've got a really good feeling about it all. I feel like "growing up" is coming at me really fast, but I feel a lot more secure than I guess I thought I would at this point. Like I know that even though I've got some fears and reservations about some things, I'll be able to handle it however it turns out- though of course I'll always hope for the best outcome. Let's just hope this confidence sticks around. I'm kinda attached to it ;) ;)

xo. Bee.

Time to fly.

Hook is on right now. It's on my favorite part- where Rufio and Peter have a burn-off calling each other ridiculous names, and then they have a food fight. :) "Substitute Science Teacher!"




Dear Style.com , thank you for always being a cure for boredom and a fashion bible. Dear Matthew Williamson, please never stop creating "bright things for bright young things" because your designs are rad and I would wear everyfuckingthing. Love Brenna.

Today was pretty great. Spent some time at the Cinci outlet malls and was finally reunited with Katie and Jennifer- guaranteed hilarity. ;) Learned that finding a redbox in Beavercreek is easier said than done . . . buut I now know the codes to get free movies in both the Creek and Cincinnati. Win.

I also had a long venting session with my mom this morning. It was kind of weird, because I don't really know where it came from, but I said a lot of things I've never said out loud before and a lot of weight was relieved. Talked about some things I've been scared of as well. I've got a lot to ponder, but I'm feeling good. :)

- Bee

They say you go blind.

I can't sleep. I'm completely restless and anxious for no one reason I can put a finger on. It's like that feeling you get of having excited/nervous butterflies without knowing why. I've always kind of considered that a good feeling, except, of course, if it's robbing you of sleep. ;)

So I cleaned up for bed, got under the covers and everything, and then decided blogging was gonna work better than shut eye for the moment. :P Colin and I saw "The Crazies" a few days ago and it was suuper scary, but also really good. Problem with this is that, as I was walking through our pitch dark house to get my computer, I started having flashbacks from the movie and got really creeped out. Haha it took me a few minutes to get enough courage to go farther than the hallway and then I nearly had the shit scared out of me by my bathrobe hanging on one of the doors. Sheesh. Over-active imagination, much? :-p

Other than that, there's not much more exciting news to report on. I spent most of today watching corny movies and strange tv shows I had never watched before. I'm thinking I'll try and get some real productivity going tomorrow, or else I think this cooped up energy syndrome will only get worse. ;)

I was also thinking today that I don't want to do or have anything half-assed anymore. A lil rando thought, I know, but the revelation's been brewing for a while (hahaa I feel like I'm trying to sound so wise!). Thing is, I have so much that is good and real in my life that I unfortunately let go by the wayside a lot of times in favor of things that I'm not sure really make me happy. I think a lot of people closest to me know what I'm thinking about, even if it might not be that obvious. I guess . . I dunno how to explain it, haha . . I want to put all the effort into where it belongs: I want the people I adore to have no doubt that I feel that way about them. I want people to trust me and see me as someone they know will be there. I wanna do what I want. I want to stop being a baby without confidence in her work and start knowing that I can design and that I'm good at it because I love it.

So I know that things can get lost in translation through text but I didn't mean for that to be emo or for it to be a rant. I'm very happy ;) I debated writing about that for like ten minutes before I actually did it.lol. Maybe I'm just growing up? Chyeah, we will see :P

Alright. Now I am pooped. So maybe bedtime for real? (:

Oh, but one more thing. My friend Hilary is a music genius and 5 years ago she gave me one of the best soundtracks I own, even as of now. I get re-obsessed with it all the time (like now), and that's a sure sign of good stuff. ;)



-Bee.

Tonight she's out to lose herself.

So I haven't written in this thing for a long, long time. I've always liked blogging- it's just much easier to get in a habit of not writing in it than of writing in it. :P But it's spring break now, so I think it's as good a time as any to try and get this blog going again. Plus Courtney wrote in her's recently, so of course I thought I should do the same. ;)

As of today I am officially on spring break (save one online quiz)! Winter quarter is always the roughest of them all, so surviving it is most def a cause for celebration. :) It's nice to be home for the first time in three months, and I'm looking forward to spending time with my family, but I'm already kind of in the "okay . . so now what?" state of mind. Hmm . . seems just a few days ago I was complaining about how much work I had and how allll I wanted to do was do nothing. Typical. :P

I'm gonna do my best to make the most of this mini vacation, but I'm crazy stoked about spring quarter starting here in a couple weeks. With it comes soccer games, greek week, SUN, and the great co-op search (!!!!!). I have no doubt that it's gonna go by just as fast as the rest of the year has, so it's time to live it up before I'm out in the real world. :)

Baby, baby, babyy oooohh

I hate how I love every single song Justin Bieber makes. ;) ;)

Welll, this past week . . . was busy, and fun, and sad, and I felt like the human snot-machine for most of it. Yeah, gross. :P But I think I would call it an overall success so far! On wednesday morning we had a big critique for my textiles class; we had to stand in a stage in front of a panel of teachers and showcase our two quarter projects for the course. The first was to make a garment out of a material not usually used to make clothing and the second was to create an outfit dyed with something that would usually be considered a stain. For my projects, I made a dress out of umbrellas and a skirt and top get-up dyed with food coloring using a marbling/paint splatter kind of effect. I was actually really nervous about the crit, because I didn't know what to expect from the teachers or how my limited construction experience would match up against some other students'. But it actually went really well :) And best of all, I had a lot of fun. The teacher's were all very positive and Jacqueline (my crazy british textiles professor, haha) asked to keep one of my garments for show.

It sounds cheesy, but I kinda had a moment looking at everyone's projects where I was like ' this is so AWESOME. I'm in school for FASHION. Sick.' Like I thought I was one project runway or something hahaha. But I was seriously blown away by some peoples' creativity. Jacqueline took pictures of all of us during the crit, and I want to post some of my favorites on here as soon as she uploads them. :)

This post is getting way longer than I thought it would. I guess I don't have much else to say right now other than that I am feeling really, really lucky these days. :) I've decided to leave the appearances of miss mopey pants back in winter quarter. haha.

Alright, I've got a date with 'Project Runway' and thin mints here in a few. Thinking I might do this again tomorrow. ;)

<3 Bee.

-Edit-

Forgot to mention that Janel and I rented "The Time Traveller's Wife" and "The Princess and The Frog" last night. Both really good movies. Prince Naveen is definitely up there on the hottest Disney princes list.;) If you're a girl, puh-lease don't even pretend you haven't had that conversation.