Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth.

Alright so I actually wrote this last night, but my computer froze and I didn't realize that blogger saves your posts while you are writing them (how cool is that?!). So anyway, here goes(=

Today was a glorious day outside! I couldn't enjoy it, unfortunately, because I'm stuck in studios all day on Wednesdays. But last time I checked, it was still a glorious night. :D

I've come to the conclusion that I am just always going to care about some people more than they're going to care about me. I think this is what has bothered me for a while in my relationships with some other people- I felt like I could only put in as much as they did. But now (some people may find this kinda strange), I'm okay with it. It's not that I particularly enjoy feeling like an option to someone who I consider a priority, but I'd rather just value a person in my life without questioning it. It's much less complicated, and much more real, that way. I'm also sure that I've been on the other side of this situation as well. 

I've also realized that a lot of my favorite songs have lyrics that are raw and...I'm not sure how to describe it...exposed? Even if the words are almost brutally real- I love that in a song. Kind of a random bit of information, I know, but it's a connection I surprisingly just recently made. =p

"She lifts her skirt up to her knees, walks through the garden rows with her bare feet, laughing. I never learned to count my blessings, I choose instead to dwell in my disasters." 

"Then think of what you did and how I hope to God he was worth it... I've got more wit, a better kiss, hotter touch, a better fuck than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me." 

"See I don't mind, but I'm not surprised to find that you do. You see I know that I have done all this to you, to you. And I feel fine, but I know the same does not apply to you. Yeah I know the same does not apply to you, So I guess that I'll curl up and die too." 

"I don't love you, I'm just passing the time. You could love me if I knew how to lie."

"I'm here to remind you of the mess you left when you went away. It's not fair to deny me of the cross I bear that you gave to me."

Okay, I think that's enough examples. =p haha. 

Jonas Brothers tomorrow. (= And my love is coming on Saturday. Busy, Busy, Busy, Happy. 

Loove. Bee. 

You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

I love the cliche-ness of my title today.

I have a large amount of homework I need to do, but I feel like I can't do it well unless I post an entry first. haha. I've taken quite a liking to this blog thing, and I've set a goal for myself to post my thoughts every day.

Tonight I am feeling inspired. Inspired by my friends. Which makes me even happier...and luckier. Even though this particular group of my friends and I are in the process of overcoming an ugly and unfortunate obstacle, I've realized the true meaning of friendship and sisterhood through witnessing their thoughts tonight.  Now matter how many mistakes we make or how frustrated we all become with things, I will always feel honored to call myself a part of them. 

My friend Claire and I are reverting back to a 12-year-old state this Friday and going to see the new 3D Jonas Brothers movie. Oh how I cannot tell a lie...I am so excited!! We are going all out....JoBros shirts and everything...fantastic. :D 

Well, now I'm starting to feel guilty about the whole homework thing, so I'll end with this: My new goal is to put more effort into living my dreams than into dreaming them. 

Oh, and this: One of my favorite videos from my all-time favorite band:

xo. Bee. 

I can't sleep nights for thinking of you.

My studio this afternoon was cancelled and I am thrilled. Not having a three-hour class smack in the middle of the day leaves me with mass amounts of free time...the possibilities are endless. :D

We finished our chapter on the Renaissance in my art history class today, and I've got to admit- I'm going to miss it.  I've always loved art, but some of the Renaissance paintings and sculptures we studied were beautiful and made me excited about going to that long lecture. haha. Here's the "Creation of Adam" from my favorite ninja turtle, Michelangelo. =p

Overall, I think last night's Oscar's were pretty pro. They dragged a little in the middle during the production-type awards, but I can appreciate their effort to put some excitement into it with the different sets and exciting presenters.  As I'm sure everyone knows by now, "Slumdog Millionaire" bitch slapped the competition, clarifying my feelings of really needing to see that movie. lol. And Kate Winslet won best actress! Yesss! I think she's so amazing and elegant. (= I haven't seen "The Reader," my I'll trust my mom's word that it was really good.

Should I give up? Or should I just keep chasing pavements...even if it leads nowhere...

Well, I'm also excited because Monday nights are the best night in TV! haha. First "House" comes on at 8 (this is my roommate and I's faaavorite), then we have a "homework" break between 9 and 10, and the "Secret Life of the American Teenager" comes on at 10 (Yeah...this is probably one of the most horrible shows in television history, but we are addicted to it nonetheless. haha!), and finally "The City" at 11.  Whitney pretty much has my dream job and lifestyle, but I wish they would show more fashion than love triangles on that show. Whatever.

Well, I've got to try and be productive with homework, eat something, and then work out with the girls. I love you for reading this, so I'll leave you with something I love. 

I carry your heart with me

I carry it in my heart

Anywhere I go, you go, my dear

And whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling

I fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet

I want no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true

And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; 

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

 I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart. 

xo. Bee, 

'Life is de Bubbles'

Hey There. :D

So here goes post number one in my blogging career. haha. Like I told my friend Courtney today, I think I'm one of those people who needs to get my thoughts out there in some way. I'm not sure if anyone will read this, but I'm excited about it nonetheless. (= 

I'm watching the Oscars with my roomie right now...we've been looking forward to this all week! I've discovered two things so far: 1. Frieda Pinto's ("Slumdog Millionaire") dress is INcredible. 2. Seth Rogen probably has my favorite laugh in all of history. Haha! It's so great.

Here's Frieda Pinto's John Galliano dress.

I can't wait to see how this year's Oscars play out...Like many others, I'm rooting for Heath Ledger to win Best Supporting Actor, but he's got some tough competition. I'm such a sucker for awards shows ;]

I ordered the new "Live in Chicago" CD from Panic at the Disco the other day. To celebrate how psyched I am about this, I'm going to post my favorite Panic interview in this post. Watch and laugh! 

 

Well, that's about all the news I've got for today...I was so excited about starting this blog that I didn't take much time to think about what I was actually going to write. In the meantime, check out the blogs I follow in my "Blogs I Love" section over  - - -> there. They're great. =] 

Thanks for reading!

Loove. Bee.