Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth.

Alright so I actually wrote this last night, but my computer froze and I didn't realize that blogger saves your posts while you are writing them (how cool is that?!). So anyway, here goes(=

Today was a glorious day outside! I couldn't enjoy it, unfortunately, because I'm stuck in studios all day on Wednesdays. But last time I checked, it was still a glorious night. :D

I've come to the conclusion that I am just always going to care about some people more than they're going to care about me. I think this is what has bothered me for a while in my relationships with some other people- I felt like I could only put in as much as they did. But now (some people may find this kinda strange), I'm okay with it. It's not that I particularly enjoy feeling like an option to someone who I consider a priority, but I'd rather just value a person in my life without questioning it. It's much less complicated, and much more real, that way. I'm also sure that I've been on the other side of this situation as well. 

I've also realized that a lot of my favorite songs have lyrics that are raw and...I'm not sure how to describe it...exposed? Even if the words are almost brutally real- I love that in a song. Kind of a random bit of information, I know, but it's a connection I surprisingly just recently made. =p

"She lifts her skirt up to her knees, walks through the garden rows with her bare feet, laughing. I never learned to count my blessings, I choose instead to dwell in my disasters." 

"Then think of what you did and how I hope to God he was worth it... I've got more wit, a better kiss, hotter touch, a better fuck than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me." 

"See I don't mind, but I'm not surprised to find that you do. You see I know that I have done all this to you, to you. And I feel fine, but I know the same does not apply to you. Yeah I know the same does not apply to you, So I guess that I'll curl up and die too." 

"I don't love you, I'm just passing the time. You could love me if I knew how to lie."

"I'm here to remind you of the mess you left when you went away. It's not fair to deny me of the cross I bear that you gave to me."

Okay, I think that's enough examples. =p haha. 

Jonas Brothers tomorrow. (= And my love is coming on Saturday. Busy, Busy, Busy, Happy. 

Loove. Bee.