"I ain't here to do anything halfway."

"Don't give a damn what anyone might say,
I just wanna free fall for a while."

So listen up- I finally figured out what inspires me to blog. Music! Haha, shocker I know. =p I love writing anytime to blow off steam or shake out excitement, but I'll be most likely to whip out my computer after listening to some of my favorite artists. This whole statement seems kinda pointless, but whatever. ;] It's true!

"I've been roaming around, always looking down at all I see. Painted faces fill the places I can't reach. You know that I could use somebody."

I feel like I've recently fallen back in love with my friends. Now don't get me wrong- they will always mean the world to me, but I've lately become even more aware of just how incredible they are. It's kind of sad to me that it sometimes takes hardships or changes to make me realize it, but I am so lucky. How could I ever think, even for a second, that they wouldn't want to help me out? Or that they wouldn't have time for me when I needed it? How could I ever think those things, knowing that I would always want to do the same for them? The best part of all this is that I'm finding all these amazing things in old friends as well as more recent ones, in people I never believed I could get so close to and people I thought had forgotten about me. I just wish I had never forgotten about some of them. From here on in, I'm not going to waste my connections with people, even if I'm afraid they won't feel the same. It's always worth it. ;]

So, in other news, I have a new obsession:



Haha oh yeahh. =p I don't care about your twilight misconceptions- this show is the shit. It's got an awesome plot line and I love the characters . . . needless to say, I'm addicted. :D

Well, that's about all I've got to say for this post. But no- one more thing: when your favorite book of all time is made into a movie, you should probably not go see it in case they change anything huge like . . I don't know . . . the entire ending. And they WILL. But I'm not bitter =p

haha but seriously, if you're going to see the movie "My Sister's Keeper," spare yourself the dramatics and read the book. Amazing!

Love. Bee.

P.S. I don't mean to shove more Michael Jackson down people's throats, but I love this video (and song of course haha). Regardless of what he was like when he died, the man was soo ahead of his time in the entertainment world and he did so many iconic things. The dancing in this video is siiick. Sorry Justin Timberlake and Usher- we know where you got it from. =]

Hide and Seek

So, in case you haven't heard . . . I survived my first year at UC and (maybe more importantly) in DAAP! haha ;D These past nine months have been both the hardest and best in my life. I don't want to forget this.

I feel like I have changed dramatically and learned so much. These are some of the most important things:

Janel and I can watch "Rent" ad nauseum and never everrr get tired of it. Oh- and we will never reach a conclusion on the "which one of us will marry Adam Pascal" argument. =p

DAAP is not nearly as intense as people think. But it's true that your crazy 3D projects will not do themselves if you wait until the week they are due to work on them.

I will never fight for anyone's attention. If it's someone who really cares about me, I don't think I should ever have to do that.

If anything strange is going to happen during the day, it will happen to Courtney, Janel and I. ahahaha.

Facebook chat is ideal for having shocking and intense conversations. haha. But, if we're being honest, I would always rather talk to you in person.

Courtney and I don't usually follow through on our big, mischievous plans (e.g. streaking, making our movie). haha. But it's totally okay to dream =]

If there's something you really wanna do, do it. You'll never get as many opportunities to try new things as you do in college.

I'm not nearly as good at being alone as I have been in the past. I feed off the energy of other people.

Relient K's "The Bird and The Bee Sides" album is amazing at relating to you and making you think. It also keeps me in "the zone" throughout three-hour drawing studios. (=

Theta = love. I don't need your stinkin' stereotypes. My sisters are amazing. :D

I'm incredibly good at finding "useful" things to do while putting off homework. =p

"Beautiful" by Taylor Swift and "Just Around the Riverbend" from Pocahontas (haha wtf, riiight?) will alwaysss get stuck in your head.

I try to always give people the best of me, but I slip up sometimes. That's why the people who love me despite that will always be gifts in my eyes.

Chances are, I think you're exceptional. =]

I can't believe this year is over, but I look forward to everything awesome we'll encounter in the future. For now, I'm just gonna make some hometown memories in the meantime. ;] I appreciate everyone who respected my boundaries, those who pushed me to break them and those who were just plain there for me. I don't forget easily.

Love. Bee.

"Where are your guts to fly?"